What do you do when life catches you off guard and the faith you thought was strong suddenly feels weak?

I would like to tell you that this did not take me by surprise, but it did.

I would like to tell you that because I am a woman of faith, I was fully prepared when life suddenly changed, but I wasn’t.

I had studied the Scriptures. I had taught lessons about Job. I had encouraged other women to trust God in difficult seasons. I knew what the Bible said about faith, suffering, waiting and spiritual warfare.

But knowing the lesson and living the lesson are two completely different things.

Maybe you know this feeling too. You love God, but you are tired.

You believe His Word, but you are struggling to understand what He has allowed.

You pray, but sometimes it feels like your prayers are barely making it past your lips.

You worship, but the worship is interrupted by tears.

You encourage everyone else, but privately, you wonder who will encourage you.

You know God is able, but you are weary from waiting for Him to move.

Perhaps you are dealing with sickness, loss, disappointment, betrayal, financial pressure, a broken relationship or a situation involving one of your children. Whatever brought you here, life has shaken you in a way you never expected.

Now you are wondering, “What is wrong with my faith?”

Sis, nothing is wrong with you because this hurts. You are not failing God because you are tired. You are not less spiritual because you have questions, and your faith is not canceled because you cry.

One morning, I arrived at work and sat in my car longer than usual.

As the tears rolled down my cheeks, my mind wandered through all the special moments I had shared with my daughter. I thought about her voice, her smile, our conversations, our laughter and all the ordinary moments I never imagined I would miss so deeply.

I cried because I missed my daughter. I missed life before hospital rooms, surgeries, medical updates and difficult decisions became part of our everyday reality.

But those tears did not mean I had stopped believing God. They meant I was a mother whose heart was hurting.

There will be moments when you can quote every Scripture and still cry. There will be days when you know God is faithful but still feel overwhelmed. There will be times when your heart believes while your emotions struggle to catch up. That does not make you faithless. It makes you human.

Grief and Worship Can Share the Same Room

Job experienced unimaginable loss, yet Scripture tells us:

“Then Job arose, and rent his mantle, and shaved his head, and fell down upon the ground, and worshipped.”
— Job 1:20 (KJV)

Job grieved and Job worshipped.

If your faith feels weak, remember that the strength of your faith is not based solely on how strong you feel. Your security rests in the strength of the God holding you.

You may feel like you are barely holding on to Him, but He is still firmly holding on to you.

Until the next entry, keep your Bible open and your journal close.